In dire need

well, uhm, i dont want to complain, and stuff, but life is just being horribly difficult right now, and not to give you guys a long list of stuff thts happening to me right now, but i just need some help with my situation
well, in may i reported abuse on my parents
all which were true,
and i went in to police protected custody
when i went into court to see who ill be staying with
i was put into foster care, where i lost something of great sentimental value to me,
but the thing that hurt the most was tht i couldnt and still cnt have any contact with my fiancee,
and then she moved up here, in lyons,
its so hard, shes thrity minutes away, and i cnt even talk, let alone see her
and it ruined my chance completely since she only stayed in kansas for about 2 weeks, and now shes in ohio,
and so this whole thing has ruined my chances of seeing her,
oh and now im back home, where things are just getting worse,
and to just get out of the house, i went and found a job since friends werent a good enough reason to leave.

and so im back here, and all i have is pain tht drives me,
i need some help,
advice,
anything really,
i know some of youre guyes stories are worse but i just cant handle it anymore,so please

Fiancee?

That I didn't know.
Really, the only hope for that is that s he moves back to Kansas or you move to Ohio when possible. Or, just move on.

Foster Care, truthfully, not much we can do about that.
What'd you lose anyway?

And how the hell did you end back up with your parents.!?

Job, good step.

exact quote from judge
"your parents wellfare is more important than your mental stability"
thts how i got back at home
and i lost a heart necklace tht my fiancee gave to me, her first gift,
and yea i like the job so far,

You lost the necklace?!

And that must be the stupidest judge I've seen yet.

and it doesnt help tht my judge was our next door neighbor, well at least my parents at the time

Is getting judged removed as I am typing.

DARREN! I miss you. We never talk anymore since high school started.

Okay, seeing as how you are 15? almost 16? I think that you are too young to have a fiancee. A girlfriend, even a really serious relationship, sure. But fiancee?

And I'm sorry to hear about your parents, and you being back with your parents.

I'm kind of with Kevin on the moving on.

. . .

I'm glad you're back.

but you know how hormones, depression and love all work together all tht plus her gone equals uhm, how to put this, how about BANG!!!!, okay, ive been serious with her for like forever, and the title fiancee means nothing, its still like a girlfriend only with a hell of a lot more of commitment and well, money, but anyways, imissed you to donna, and kevin, andimiss you mike, im not an incosiderate jerk, we all miss you mike, youre one of the founding people for our group we have today, well anyways,yea...

NO BANG FOR YOU! Or any of you for that matter...

I think ik what you're talking about when you say fiancee. But i don't really know the WHOLE situation, or the girl, so that's about all i can say.

but when i say fiancee, i really mean it, i did propose to her and she did say yes, thts wat i mean by fiancee

Figured you had.

And yes, hormones suck.

But truthfully, not much we can do.

Besides be supportive.

well, duh. we're friends, we're always going to support each other.

except for kevin, we just poke kevin... tis fun... lol...
yea ill shut up now

hahaha.
mike hasn't been on in ages..

well, in between pokes i support kevin. =]

lol, i just poke him

you would.

yep,thts me

Actually, Darren the only who's poked me really.

dude foster care.. well aware of the sitch there.
if your supposed to be with her and you both want it enought just trust me when i say.. its gunna work out.
their your parents and you didn't get to choose them but friends are gods way of saying sorry i fucked up on the family front...
dude we've all been through a lot and yeah some of us lose contact .. "namely me"
but were still gunna stick it out in the end..
on a light note hows the music coming i think last time we talked you were in a band?? hows that panning out for you??